hey people!
attended weide's birthday party today!
a real wild one!
how wild?
to the extend that he was forced to kiss me and dominic,
do sex positions with dominic,
and to pole dance and sing barney song for his mom.
that's how.

too bad, i couldn't attend the prawning outing with them.
quarrelled with my father.
i really wonder if he cared for any of us in the family.
i've been living with my mother for 18 years of my life.
he's like,
almost non-existant.
when i'm younger,
he still brought me out to east coast and cycle,
and to marina south to fly kite.
but now?
he's not even willing to spare 2 hours of his time for his son.
there was once,
many years back,
i was at bugis with my friends and i was really starving and out of cash.
i dont want to borrow from my friends.
so i went up to his house and asked for a mere $5.
he refused to give me and scolded me.
at that point of time,
i felt that,
he really dont care about any of us at all.
no, not at all.

how i wish i can reverse real time,
like how we can reverse the time for our watches.
reverse the time when i'm still younger,
and enjoying fatherly love.
even a little.
just a little will do.


*in this river, there ain't no coming back ..

take good care, M*nM*n.
i know,
without me,
life wouldn't change.
i'm only an option,
but you're once my priority.
take good care.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR OW.
17 already,
soon to be young adult.
lots of responsibilities are waiting for you.
must start to think and act like an adult ok?

*in this river, all shall fade to black ..

Take me down this road
Ive been down here once before
Take me down this road
Once again, never again, forevermore
Take me down this road once more


Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
This aint the last goodbye


Take me down this road
Just to see a smile on your face
Take me down this road
All that is and all that was can't be replaced
Take me down this road once more


Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
This aint the last goodbye


Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
Take this love
Take this life
Take this blood
Itll never die
This aint the last goodbye

sometimes i wish,
i really could just disappear with a snap of my finger.
this world is cruel.
every man for himself.
but then again,
who would miss me?
who?
only those usually few would plus my family.
will you miss me if i evaporate away from here?
will you?

Weide's birthday on sunday.
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY MR OW!
17 already,
soon to be 18.
when you're 18, we'll go acid bar ok?

although i want to disappear from this world,
there too many things which i can't let go.
LFI, family, friends ..
there's just too many things.
what would happen to them if i disappear?
i guess life would be normal for them after a while.

well,
the mixed feelings i have still exist,
since yesterday,
i've been thinking alot.
she seemed so happy with her friends.
i guess she wouldn't be herself when she's with me.

"the hardest part of holding on is letting it go."

how true.

"Light thought it travels the fastest in this world. But little did it know, that wherever it goes, Darkness is already there, waiting for it to penetrate into."

feelings within me are like rojak now.
all real fucking messed up.

i've used my last 20c to call you for help,
but you did not offer me any.
thanks to you, i've walked home.
now i know what kind of person you are.
really,
thank you very much for today.
otherwise,
i wouldn't have seen this side of you.


how will she react when i told her yesterday?
am i her cup of tea?
will i ever get a chance to hold her hand?
i wouldn't dare to think ..

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖 会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜 天长和地久
有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你剥红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白 相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受
醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看
透也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

Back From Bangkok

heys!
bangkok is really a good place.
things are cheap and good.
that trip had really made me realised,
what's expensive.
a bottle of pepsi cost 14 baht there.
so .. what do you think?

bangkok is full of beauties.
but ive always missed only one in singapore.
she's not my gf.
but i dunno why do i miss her so much.
maybe i ..

back to topic ..
thai people are really hard-working people,
and are really earnest in doing their business.
from the way the hairstylist rebond my hair,
i can tell that she is really serious in her work.

there's a flood in bangkok on the third day i was there.
pictures i will upload soon,
not to worry.

had breakfast on the 77th floor of the hotel i stayed at.
it's called Baiyoke Sky.
the tallest building in thailand.
when you're at thailand,
you must bargain!
if not you'll be "chopped" by them.
when taking a taxi,
always ask them to go by meter.
otherwise,
they will knock the living daylights out of you.

want to know more?
follow me to bangkok next time! :)